A little over a year ago, Larkin and I spent an afternoon wandering around San Francisco, talking about our lives, our goals, our cities and a lot about dance. I was at a point in my life where I wasn’t really sure what I was doing. I was working, I was thinking about moving, I was thinking about going back to school. I asked Larkin if I could dance with him. The idea for this project didn’t even exist yet but wherever he was going next, I wanted to go, too.
I’ve believed in Larkin and Chris as storytellers and artists and just good people from the very beginning. I’ve trusted their movement and their honesty in every class, performance, and conversation we’ve shared. I’m so incredibly excited to go on this journey to explore and create with them and the rest of this amazing team.
But this is bigger and bolder than anything I’ve ever done in my dance career and it makes me anxious, not just in the sense of “will we raise enough money? Can we do this logistically?” but also in the sense of “can I do this? As a dancer?”
I believe in Project Home because it scares me. And I’m taking that as a sign that it’s important to move forward.
I’m challenging myself to lean into these doubts, embrace them, push past them, and find what’s waiting on the other side. Giving into my fears in the hopes that they’ll help me grow, as an artist and as an individual, alongside everyone involved in this project.
I still can’t say that I know what I’m doing with my life with any more certainty than I did a year ago with Larkin in Dolores Park. But being a part of this team and a part of this story of a wandering soul and her quest to find where she belongs, makes me feel like I’m on the right track to finding my home, too. If only I’m brave enough to seek it.